tempted to fall...
well, i've been overly tempted to retreat to my nice warm, safe, comfy bed. i have yet to do so i this 9-month mess, but it is getting to me again now. i'm feeling sorry for myself and we all know i need to knock that off.
when i sit and look around at my friends, i see a friend who just lost her breasts, but not her life, to breast cancer; one who lost her mom; one who's hubby is away for a year; and one who is facing bi-polar disorder. and here i am whining...
i need to find a way out of this funk.
the baby daddy said something smart to me tonight. he mentioned that i care equally about everything. i care about work as much as i care about my kids as much as i care about my house and family and friends and pets and orphans in cambodia and lima beans... he didn't say it quite that way, but he's right. i hate that he's right. i really really hate it. alas, he is...
so, now to try to find some balance in my life. some time between hating it and loving it to just be. any ideas?
posted by blonde hoyden @ 11:18 PM
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2 Comments:
I don't see anything wrong with taking to your bed from time to time. God knows, I've had to force myself to get out of bed on more than one occasion in the past couple of weeks! For me, it's about balance and priorities. You are like me in that you are a passionate woman...about many things, about most things. Being diagnosed with breast cancer has come with some gifts. One of them is just this...allowing myself to set priorities for my life and then finding the balance in maintaining these priorities. For me right now, the priorities are being somewhat handed to me. There are things that I must do right now. But outside of that, I choose. And you can too.
It's not a bad thing to care deeply about alot of things. It does pull at us and sometimes does feel overwhelming. But hey, some of us thrive on living on the edge of being overwhelmed. It's not necessarily bad either. I am sometimes most productive then.
I am glad you wrote. You have a great deal of support to draw on through your cyber network! And Carrie, don't forget to take time for yourself!
You and your sweet kids are in my prayers.
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