my new job...

is not the kind i will be paid for financially. however, since i have taken the job of "keeping the hoyden happy," i have realized it is not my responsibility to make anyone else, including the baby daddy, happy. it is merly my job to control what is legitimately in my control...me!

this means not feeling i need to let him in when i don't want to. not feeling i need to be nice, call, answer calls, talk about anything, or even care about anything having to do with him. that in itself is somewhat freeing and something i haven't realized until now.